Today is my Mom’s birthday. It is also the day that she was diagnosed with lung cancer two years ago. Less than two months later I lost her. It has been a tough two years. In the words of the great Foo Fighters “it’s times like this you learn to live again”. So true. Life will never be the same without my momma.
So Mom, I love you. I hope that you are proud of me and are able to watch your grandkids grow up. They miss you dearly, as do I. I miss you every day. I am happy that I get to see your beautiful smile in my dreams.
On a different note…here are some pics of my kids I took this weekend. My 6 year old did not want to participate.
for you music lovers out there, I have a great recommendation for you. The Airborne Toxic Event. Don’t you love it when you download an album and you love every song?
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Your work is always so moving Jessica, Happy birthday to your momma…
I’m so sorry for your loss. I understand it so well as I lost my mom when I was 13 and my dad just over a year ago. My prayers are with you.
Blessings,
Tiffany
Hi Jessica–
I “know” you from the ILP board. I am the one that messaged you while trying to decide on the Tamron lens and pondered offering up my 200 f/2.8L lens in exchange for a mentor.
–I decided on getting the Tamron by the way, and love it.
Your post touched my heart.
My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer in July of 2002 and died two months later as well. The day after her 51st birthday.
I was thinking about her this morning and then happened upon your blog.
Strange, huh?
Just wanted to tell you that I am sorry for your loss. At two years, I am sure that it still feels like yesterday.
You are an amazing photographer with beautiful children, and always very helpful to us JSO’s on the boards.
I am certain that she is very proud of you.
this post made me cry.
and then the photos are so beautiful they made me gasp!
These are such beautiful pictures of your children. And I am so sorry about your mom. I’m sure that she would be very proud of you and your lovely family (though a bit worried about your leg!)…
Hi Jessica, I found you through the post Gary Fong posted. I’m so sorry to hear about your burn, my gosh it looks sooo painful… I hope you feel better soon!!!!
I was wondering if you could tell me who you go through for your blog and website?? I like how your blog has meta tags and everything that looks like the search engines would find helpful.
I wanted to contact you and tell you I had tears in my eyes when I read your post about your Mom. I recently lost my Mom to cancer, Dec. 1st 07. It will be a year soon and I miss her dearly. We were so close and called each other at least once a day. She was set up with hospis and me and my sisters took turns being with her and caring for her. I was ALWAYS the one that woke up and ran to her when she needed someone in the night; I always heard her. So I requested a baby monitor so I could hear her and everyone insisted that I sleep with it. Her last night I awoke at 1:00 am and ran to her just as she was taking her last breath. She didn’t wake up but I believe she was caling me to her to be with her. I can relate to the dreams as you talked about. recently I had a bad evening and was stressed and asked Mom for help. That night, right before I woke up she gave me a hug and told me she would pray for me. That made me feel so close to her. It was sooo real. My thoughts and with you, I hope we can meet someday, maybe at the WPPI in feb. 09.
Take care, Kind regards, Cathy Ann
cathy@ambiancestudios.com
262-338-0922
Hi Jessica-
You don’t know me….I found your blog on one of my many nights researching photography for my own education. I am a budding photographer in the Seattle area. Anyways, I had to comment on this post. I too lost my mom to Lung Cancer. Less than a year ago on February 14th. Totally unexpected, we didn’t even know she had lung cancer until after she went into cardiac arrest as a result of the cancer. It’s been the toughest year of my life. I only reach out to you because in some random and strange way I know that you know how I feel. I can talk to others who are concerned or try to be supportive but they don’t know what it is like. She is the reason I decided to try my hand at photography on a professional level. It was after her death…I needed something to try and fill the deep crevace her absence left in my heart. She was my best friend…we talked everyday.
Your work is beautiful, I hope someday I can take such beautiful pictures!
Sincerely,
Danielle Weathers
Jessica,
Thinking of you. I can only imagine how much you miss your mom and I know she is so very proud of who you are and all that you’ve accomplished. Beautiful images of your children.